Disaster Desire

He says he’d be scared if it got quiet. If there was a lull in Covid over the summer. “That would scare me more,” he says, “than if we continued to see cases ongoing.” Because that would mean another wave is coming.

HYACINTH EMPINADO/STAT, based on a report by CIDRAP, the Center for Infectious Disease Research and Policy.

Why does that give me a little thrill? I mean… it’s not that I want it to happen. But when I hear an expert confirm my worst fear…? I feel that racy sense of wanting it.

‘Disaster Desire,’ I call it.